Going domestic..

Hmm.. did a bit of cooking for dinner to take my mind off things. I would say, cooking is fun actually. It tests your creativity especially, when you have limited ingredients left in your fridge. *laughs*

So in attempt to clear off the stuff I bought the other day, let's see..corn, oyster mushrooms, celery, egg tofu, fishcakes & crabsticks.. I managed to whip up a soup and a dish for dinner.

* Fried egg tofu w mushrooms & celery *

* Corn soup with chinese mushrooms, crabsticks and fishcakes *

Tofu and mushroom day!!

Woohoo!! 1 more working day and I'm officially on leave till the 4th Jan.. approximately a week away from work, reports and shitty people. Lots to do for tomorrow though AND most importantly, hope all goes well for my closing. *fingers crossed*

Counting the days..

3 more days till I can finally get out of town...to a city where no one knows me. Aha! My last mini getaway for 2009 .. Can barely wait! It was planned out of the blue and kind of a budgeted trip this time.

When I'm back, am going to officially tender my resignation. Can't wait to take a sabbatical! Gosh.. I still need to wait for a month before it happens. Boo!! Well, hope all goes well for me. *fingers crossed*

^.^

A dif x'mas eve this year..

Why? Aha.. 'coz I chose to stay in this year. *Lolz* Surprised? Hmm.. not really i presume. After years of X'mas eve's traffic jam, crowded places and partying.. I think a bit of peace and quiet at home will do me good. Did a bit of cooking and opened up a bottle of bubbly while catching up on some telly, Lord of the Rings - Return of the king on 8tv (don't laugh! I haven't watched it yet before this..aha!!). Not bad actually. I do reckon at times, you need some peace and quiet time alone.

Anyways, without further delay, here's my pre-x'mas dinner cooking (I shall name it my 'all-u-can-find-in-your-fridge' udon noodles). Basically, I don't really follow the recipe when I cook. I like to let my creativity flow as I do it. Outcome = Not bad. Am proud of thy self * pat on my shoulder * :-

* Main ingredient - Udon noodles (of course!!) *

* Fishcakes (left) & celery (right) *

* Baby portabello mushrooms, snow peas, chopped garlic, curry leaves & dried shrimps *

* The end result *

Merry X'mas to all!!! May you have a good one.. *cheers*

*P/s: - Am going back home to see my niece tomorrow. *hearts*.. She's so cute!! Our 'lil princess.. Cu soon 'lil baby Amelia!

Is there ...

.. such thing as a memory eraser? I definitely need it.. BADLY!!

In a daze...

My world has been severely grey the whole day.. Manifesting in devastation and being suffocated by my own thoughts! Yet again!! Why? ... This seems to be lingering in my mind forever!!

Winter festival ('Dong zhi') ...

Winter festival ('Dong Zhi' in chinese) - Chinese people celebrates this day as a mark to welcome the coming New Year. This is when the whole family gathers to have dinner together and eat glutinous rice balls aka. 'tong yuen'.

Basically, my initial plan was to head home to have dinner with Mum and Dad today. However, things don't always go as planned. So, long story cut short, ended up staying at home and cooked up a meal for me and bro.

Upon rummaging through my fridge to see what I have on hand to whip up 'the meal', I figure a simple meal consisting of pork stew, a vege dish and a soup will be sufficient for both of us.

* Pork stew with chinese mushrooms and hard-boiled egg *

* Celery with fishcakes and baby portabello mushrooms *

* Spinach soup *

Oh! And the balls.. *lol* ..I meant the glutinous rice balls, 'tong yuen' .. Mummy made some, and frenny brought it up since she was hanging out in town. After dinner, I distributed half of it to bro and ate mine in a jiffy as it's not something I fancy eating. Totally not a big fan of this stuff.. Just wanted to get it over and done with. After downing the 'balls' *blurghh* .. I realized that I forgot to take a pic of it. Took a substitute pic instead. ^_^

* 'Dong zhi', winter fest. is not complete without these balls - Tong Yuen!! *

Ok! That's all for now. Wiped out from all the cooking and washing. ZZzzz..

100th post + good news!

I celebrate my 100th post with joyful news.. I am officially an extended 'Aunt' because my cousin sister has just given birth to healthy baby Amelia this morning around 9 am. * laughs * Hooray!!! We have a new addition to our big family. What a way to start a Sunday morning!!

I hope there'll be more good news to come and may all the bad ones stay far far away and NEVER pop up again!!

Torn..

I just read that an earthquake struck Taiwan today. First thing that came into mind was that 'person' was still there. Can't deny that I am obviously worried sick but I presume that 'the person' would be safe. Then I come to think about it, who am I to worry so much? 'People' don't even take my feelings into consideration. Anyways, whatever happens, I just hope U're safe. That's the least I can do.

Mental vomit..

Woke up again at 430am with the question "Why?" in mind. Feeling? Like a dagger pushed into your heart! Stabbed endlessly and the heart is bleeding profusely. And while I am suffering in silence, people are having the time of their lives, enjoying their holiday with family. What does that makes me? A bloody fool!!

And there I was, worried sick for 4 days...freaking out! Thinking something might have happened to u. Couldn't sleep!! Couldn't eat!!! *aargghhh* .. Why?

My chest is overloaded and sinking with pain..

I was thinking.. 'People' doesn't give a damn about me not being able to sleep, me being upset, me being sick, or about my feelings!! If they did, they wouldn't have subjected me to such disappointment, pain and sorrows throughout this time.

I will always be the Ugly Duckling no matter how much I've changed or tried.. 'People' just choose to see you the way they want to and find faults with you because they think that gives them an excuse to play around with your feelings!! I will always be on the losing end..

To them, being by their side for so many years does not mean anything at all. Who am I, rite? A bloody nobody.. who just keeps getting hurt again and again! So what if you know them best?? Their weakness..etc.. You still get your heart broken to pieces again and again!!

I'm no 'Superwoman'!!! My feelings count too, you know!

Anyways, what's the use? They won't understand.. Why do? I guess being SELFISH is the Key to Survival !! What is the use of you giving, forgiving and forgetting constantly when 'people' just don't give a shyte about all you've done for them!!! All because they know you will always forgive them.

WTF??? My generosity is not to be abused!! Hmm..towards the pathway of succumbing into bitterness now..maybe it's for the best! Being nice doesn't bring you nowhere!!

Can someone please remove my heart? I would rather be heartless now..AND choose to remain that way!! I don't EVER wanna care, love OR give my heart to anyone anymore!! Like what they say, "The good ones screw you! The bad ones screw you too!". So, basically you are SCREWED!!

Inflicting self-control..

Am trying my best not succumb into bitterness, sorrow and pain (umm..). Ok, I do admit pain and sorrow will always be there no matter how hard I try and tried to appear strong. I forced myself to go out tonight in efforts to abstain from dwelling and drowning in sorrows. I thought being amongst friends can make me feel better. But upon seeing them, I was wrong. I decided put up an act to cover up my sadness. This has been a frequent habit for me. My life seems to be turning into a big show. (This is when Lenka's song 'The Show' comes into mind..hmm..)

Literally speaking, I am not the type of person who easily shows my emotions despite how bad I feel to others because I do not want nor wish to affect them. Laughing and smiling when you're utterly upset is the worst feeling ever. I'm so tired but I can't seem to fall asleep. Because I know that once I close my eyes, everything will come flooding into my mind. Can one be suffocated by their own thoughts? Leaving you hard to breathe, drowning in fear, pain and sorrows... Why?? Why me? How can U do this to me?

*sigh* Welcome to the cruel reality!! ..

Unhappy thoughts..

Am currently overwhelmed and suffocated with unhappy thoughts. They say time heals it all but I doubt it. It's just been way too long. Especially when you invested so much time and love in a person and they do such things to you. It hurts like a b**** but you can't do no shit about it. No matter how hard you've tried, the worst thing IS you can't seem to let it go. Believe me! I've tried. All the attempts to get out of the dumpster has been to no avail.

Mentally wise, I'm heading downhill. The ghost of the past is haunting me, every sec, every min, every hour of the day. No matter how hard I've tried to suppress the feeling and push it to the back of my head..Bham! It comes rushing back again! Why is my world so grey? Is there any remedy for the broken hearted?

Anxiety kicks in..

Waking up at 4am after sleeping for only a few hours is certainly not normal. Waves of anxiety enveloped me, making it hard to breathe, heart palpitating at a super fast rate and mind ~ lost!! The question that kept lingering in my mind was "WHY???". How can people be so cruel?? No magic pills on hand, so I just stared at the walls of my bedroom, asking "Why?". As dawn was approaching, I decided I was not in the state of mind to drive to work. I think I fell asleep around 8am. But woke up at 9am again (???). *sighs*

Can the rain and thunder in my life please go away? When can I see sunshine? When can I smile sincerely from my heart? I'm on the brink of losing my mind soon. Having hit by endless thunderstorms, I'm so tired of fighting or walking towards the light. At this point of time, I just feel like curling up in my bed, sleeping soundly with nothing on my mind. I need a hand to walk me through this storm. I'm tired of walking alone!! I'm tired of feeling this way!! Being this way! Everything!!

hypocrites!!

They cheat u of ur feelings..make u worry bout them..BUT all they are doing is having fun, having a holiday while u were so damn worried bout their well-being and safety. fuck off! Go to hell!!!

shitty low life's

Incident - (Kota Damansara)

No brainer, driving a black Honda Jazz, car no. plate JP 38, hogging the road, moving at 20km/hr and stopping in the middle of a T-junction and parking in the middle of an intersection. WTF??? And, when I horned at the a**hole, he had the audacity to be pissed off and tailed my car, pressing on his car horn all the way thinking he is so damn superior. *pfffffttt* Totally not scared of all this shitty low-life's!!! Crazy! Then, he stopped beside my car and was scolding as if I could hear a f*** he's saying. Yes! Pigs with no brains. Plus, it was raining heavily.

Next, pig brain parked right in front of my car in attempt to scare me and started scolding again. (Wtf? Am totally not wavered by all this low-life's). Besides, I can't hear a word he's saying. Geez! Get a life ya bloody a**!!! This is not bloody JB ya shit-head! In KL city, everyone IS a road bully. No one will give a shyte to low-life's like u!! I was in the midst of dialling 999 to report on the a**hole harassing me, when he left after he saw I wasn't even a tad affected by all his bullshits.

So peeps, welcome to Malaysia! The land of 'babi's' and low-life no brainers on the road!!!

Breaking news..

Approximately half an hour ago, my Regional Manager just announced that she has tendered her resignation early of December and will only be here till the end of the month. So, that was basically the main reason for an urgent tele-conference call today. I had the tiniest intuition about this when I called in to join the tele-conference.

Never did I know, my intuition can be quite accurate at times *lol*. Hmphh!! I'm actually not surprised when I heard this, especially when the management is like crap. Doesn't really affect me since I'm planning to leave too. Anyways, I bet now the a**hole is shaking with fright since his 'sugar mummy' is gone. No one to back him up now. Ooh la la! "God does have eyes!" (direct translation from a Cantonese phrase). Haha! Serves him right!

Call me superstitious! But I strongly believe in luck, fate and karma. What comes around, goes around! The a**hole's retribution is just around the corner.. and I believe the worst has yet to come for him. We shall wait and see. Let the show begin.. *evil smile*

worried~

What happened to U? I just hope U'r alright!! Hope all's well and everything's going smoothly for U.

More of work/escapade @ Langkawi ..

* This is the main reason for my presence in Langkawi - work!! *

Basically, the trip wasn't actually that bad at all until the a**hole arrived on Friday night. So, I had to only bear a day and a half of his pain in the a** presence (which is equally BAD enough!!). Anyways, I don't and won't dwell on this shyte-head issue. Thank god for the presence of some other reps, which offered to drive us (me & another pain in the a** aka. shoe polisher partner) out town (very, very far away from the hotel - takes roughly about an hour or so) for dinner and some shopping the first night. Fyi! A trip by the local taxi from the hotel costs a whooping RM85 one way (am totally not kidding!!) while, the hotel taxi costs rm105 (!!!). Wtf? This is just crazyy!! Super luxurious place for super rich fools, I reckon!!

So we headed out to Kuah, after braving through some windy and extremely dark and narrow roads, along the way, trying our best NOT to vomit *blurghhhh* and was basically starving like hell by the time we reached town after an hour's drive. Had some simple Chinese 'Tai chow' which comprises of fried noodles and rice to share among the troop. Wasn't in the mood to take any pics though. Plus, I didn't have much appetite for dinner due to fatigue from lack of sleep and the traveling.

However, I did feel slightly better the moment I stepped into the duty free shop *lol* and the rest was history. Btw, I've tried my very best to control myself and I think I've done well by not going overboard this time. Just bought some chocs, a bottle of Chivas Regal (to bring home), a 6-pack of Heineken and a bottle of Shiraz (for my stay in Langkawi). So here are the pics of my tiny loot from the duty free shop :-

* Alcohol *

* Sweet things *

Total bill:-

• Chivas - RM64 only (less 3% if paid cash. Original price - RM67)
• Penfold's Shiraz Cabernet - RM31 (less 2% if paid cash. Original price - RM33)
• Heineken 6- pack - Rm14.70 (approx. RM 2.5 per can ONLYYYY!!)
• Chocs - RM139.60

Luckily for me, coincidentally my ex-colleagues are also having their annual meeting here at Langkawi from Friday - Wednesday. They came over to fetch me from The Datai, about 10 minutes away from Andaman both nights (Friday and Saturday). I do have to admit that there were some mixed feelings seeing them. Hmm.. Happy for sure that I'm in the company of more fun people and gratitude, for they still made me feel like I'm part of them. I presume being amongst positive energy certainly made me feel more relaxed, like myself again. And I realized, I do miss their company for sure!

Anyway, here are some pics of one of the suite at The Datai before I get all sappy and emotional *lol* :-

* Bedroom *

* Lazy bed *

* Dining hall - behind the curtains, doorway which opens to the balcony with views of the lush Rainforest *

* Super spacious bathroom - There's actually 2 in the suite. This is the bigger of the two. *

* Bathtub & me, the photographer *

Next, pics of my room service: -

* Penang Char Kuey Teow *

* Nasi goreng with prawn cracters, omelete and sambal chicken *

Guess how much was the room service?? RM40 + 10 % service charge = RM44 for a plate of nasi goreng *pfftttt*. Same goes for the noodle. No choice! Since town was so far away, this is the only alternative to ease an empty tummy. Logically speaking, I should be able to claim this under my company, BUT the low- life a**hole, which is EXTREMELY stingy and bloody CHEAPSKATE denied us of that priviledge. F***!!! As always, he is trying to make our life miserable. He thinks by doing so, our big boss would give him credits for helping the company save $. Wtf!!! Bloody god damn faggot!!

Oh! Btw, to my utter surprise, room service was actually much nicer compared to the food provided during lunch and breakfast. Hmm.. This reminds me of another low-life cheapskate person, the a**hole's blue eye boy aka. my so-called 'partner'. When he saw the price of room service and with the denial of claims, he starved the night eating chocolates because he was also a scrooge and couldn't bear paying RM40 for room service. The next morning, he attacked the buffet breakfast and ate till he almost vomit. Wtf?? Geez... Whatever!! None of my biz at all!! I try my best not to associate with these low life people. I must say, we are totally from different standards!! Grrr..

* Upclose *

Another happy moment was getting free laser sessions twice for both my arms and elbows from Innomed, whose booths were next to us. Asclepion is the name of the machine and apparently it just arrived from the States and is not available anywhere yet. Main function is for polishing and rejuvenation of the skin. Target area, face, arms, legs, neck, elbows and it also helps to lighten scars. The best thing about this machine is NO DOWNTIME at all *hearts*.

Last but not least, some cam-whoring of course!!

* Having a puff at the balcony *

* Bored *

* My fav pic taken at the beach - the pathway *

* Free product from Uriage (French company) *

Note :- Bag resembles one from Longchamp!! Cetak rompak, Aiyo! ^o^

Alas! Back to the city..

* Fyi! Actually my ride was MAS but didn't manage to get a pic of the plane. This is the colorful alternative ^.^ *

Flew back home yesterday evening. Flight was delayed due to some technical problems (Pffftttt..), reached airport around 5+ pm.. ding! dang! ding! dang!.. By the time I reached home, I was so damn exhausted that I couldn't even sleep at all. And I have to say, it was pure bad luck that the airport taxi driver was blatantly annoying and couldn't stop talking the whole way. Wtf?? I had to practically ignore him until he cut his crap when he realized that I wasn't gonna answer any of his STUPIIDDD PIG BRAIN questions. Geez!! I hate these super low life 'babi's'!!! (Note:- Am not trying to be a racist BUT that retard practically annoyed the hell outa me. F***!!!)

Was too lazy to do anything but to laze around, watching telly. Totally wiped out by the god damn work-apade!! I have been feeling lethargic and feverish the whole time I was in Langkawi and felt even worse last night. So, I decided to take medical leave today.

* Too lazy to even unpack my loot *

More complaints ready to be spilled out. I am definitely more confident towards my decision in taking hiatus from work after this Langkawi trip.

A brief work+escapade ?

I flew over to Langkawi via MAS Airlines this morning for the 34th PDM (Malaysian Dermatologist Society) congress. We are setting up a booth here till Sunday. Super duper tired!! Flight was at 8.30 am so, I had to wake up around 6+am get ready..bla!bla!bla!..reached KLIA around 7.30 am.

Thank god! The congress is held at The Andaman, Langkawi, which apparently is a luxurious 5-star hotel. Super nice and comfy! I checked out the room rates on the Internet last night, and guess what?? It cost a whooping RM990 per night (low peak season) just for a Rainforest Datai room (super luxurious actually). Here's some pics of the room:-

* The super comfy bed with plenty of pillows *

* Mini living room *

* Balcony overlooking the lush rainforest and a glimpse of the beach *

* Personal coffee maker & coffee beans in a box (too bad i don't drink coffee) *

* Bath tub *

* Rainforest shower *

Took some pics of the coffee house and scooted down to the beach for more pics during lunch time. Here you go:-

* Some caffeine (Coke, of course! My fav!) *

* Pool *

* White sand and blue sea (I like!!) *

Can barely open my eyes now. *yawns* Gonna need some beauty sleep first before heading down to the beach for a swim and perhaps I might be able to catch a glimpse of the sunset (more pics *LOL*). I've only got today to relax and chill around before my A**H*** manager arrives. Then, it'll just be work!work!work! Hopefully, I will be able to catch up with my ex-colleagues tomorrow night, who coincidentally will be here (staying at Datai, just down the road) as well for their annual meeting. *fingers crossed* Gota catch some sleep now..Zzzzzz

dec birthday - Part 2

Celebrated 'lil Miss J's birthday this afternoon at Rakuzen, Chulan Square. We went for the eat-all-you-can, which is apparently available every Sundays. Basically, it is not the traditional 'all-you-can-eat' buffet style but what you do is to just order anything or everything ala carte from the menu as many times as you wish. We had a room to ourselves as there were 7 of us. Anyways, here's some pics of the place:-

* Outfit for the day (yes! am still having a bad hair day, hence the cap) *

And *drum roll* here are the pics of the food...MMmm...:-

* Edamame - bit soggy *

* Salads *

* Unagi with egg *

* Egg & crabstick *

* Another choice of starters *

* My fav jap fishy *

* Sashimi & Sushi moriawase *

* Mushroom yakitori, tempura & some sukiyaki thingy *

And more food *laughs* ...

* Croquette, sushi & chawan mushi *

* Chicken & salmon teriyaki *

* Some sukiyaki, curry-ish stew *

* More yakitori, saba fish, soft-shell crab & more sushi *

* Agedeshi tofu *

Haha..Bet you are salivating after looking at all the delicious foodie pics! Wait!! More pics...

Dessert, group pics and a bit of cam-whoring..

* Green tea ice-cream (I had 6 scoops of this stuff!!!) *

* Group pics with the Birthday gal *

Not bad, I would say! You can eat to your heart's content till you're sick of Japanese food. Haha! My waist has definitely gained another inch from all these gluttony. Ah well! That's the price you have to pay when you tend to overeat. *LOL* Totally a fun way to end the week =)