emo..

What do u do when you're sad? Just laugh it off? Haha...

What do u do when you're devastated with certain facts? Party it off?

What do u do when you're totally lost? Sleep it off? ZZZzzz

What do u do when u feel like crying? Laugh it off (!!!) again?

.....

i'll see U in my dreams!

Sweet Dreams - Beyonce

Turn the lights on

Every night I rush to my bed
With hopes that maybe I'll get a chance to see you
When I close my eyes I'm going out of my head
Lost in a fairytale, can you hold my hands and be my guide?

Clouds filled with stars cover the skies
And I hope it rains, you're the perfect lullaby
What kinda dream is this?

You could be a sweet dream or a beautiful nightmare
Either way I don't wanna wake up from you
(Turn the lights on)

Sweet dream or a beautiful nightmare
Somebody pinch me, your love's too good to be true
(Turn the lights on)

My guilty pleasure, I ain't going no where
Baby long as you're here I'll be floating on air
'Cause you're my

You can be a sweet dream or a beautiful nightmare
Either way I don't wanna wake up from you
(Turn the lights on)

I mention you when I say my prayers
I wrap you around all of my thoughts
Boy you're my temporary high

I wish that when I wake up you're there
To wrap your arms around me for real
And tell me you'll stay by side

Clouds filled with stars cover the skies
And I hope it rains, you're the perfect lullaby
What kinda dream is this?

You could be a sweet dream or a beautiful nightmare
Either way I don't wanna wake up from you
(Turn the lights on)

Sweet dream or a beautiful nightmare
Somebody pinch me, your love's too good to be true
(Turn the lights on)

My guilty pleasure, I ain't going no where
Baby long as you're here I'll be floating on air
'Cause you're my

You can be a sweet dream or a beautiful nightmare
Either way I don't wanna wake up from you
(Turn the lights on)

Tattoo your name across my heart so it will remain
Not even death can make us part
What kind of dream is this?

You could be a sweet dream or a beautiful nightmare
Either way I don't wanna wake up from you
(Turn the lights on)

Sweet dream or a beautiful nightmare
Somebody pinch me, your love's too good to be true
(Turn the lights on)

My guilty pleasure, I ain't going no where
Baby long as you're here I'll be floating on air
'Cause you're my

You can be a sweet dream or a beautiful nightmare
Either way I don't wanna wake up from you
(Turn the lights on)
Either way I don't wanna wake up from you

sleepless

I don't know whether it's just me or (??), each time I tend to piss u off intentionally, I always get nightmares. Woke up at 6am and am currently unable to fall back to sleep again. =( Ran out of magic pills for now (ate the last one yesterday afternoon). Oh god! I find myself dependent on them recently (totally not a good sign!!).

Am super duper tired from all the coughing, and diarrhoea ( was constantly rushing to the loo last night, never-ending story, lost count after the 7th or 8th time BUT thank goodness it fiNalllyy came to an end *phew*). My flu and fever has almost gone now besides from the occasional sneezing, nasal congestion and runny nose so, 2 down *fingers crossed* and 2 more to go (coughing and sorethroat).

Oh well, it's already 7.11 am, no point trying to sleep 'coz I've got to send my car for servicing later around 9am. My car's first service was supposed to be at the 1000th km but due to the massive travelling I've done these 2 weeks (duty calls!!), it's wayyyY passed 1000 km(currently closing to 1800th km). Was a bit paranoid initially but after I gave a call to the Toyota service centre, they assured me it wasn't a big of a deal and my car would be fine.

After the servicing, am totally going back to KL straight. Totally not staying here (home) anymore. Tentatively, I've been staying at home the whole week since Monday night, except for Tues (in JB) till today (Sat). Besides from going down south for work, I just stayed in the whole week due to the cold. So, in other words..I NEED TO GO OUT!!!! *LOL*

Plans for tonight - might be meeting up with 2 frennies. Hed Kandi is having a last performance at MOS tonight, am hoping they are totally fine to check it out later. I missed the first gig in June (was in Taiwan that week). We'll see how it goes. Most probably we'll head downtown to Changkat and have some cocktails or so. Btw, believe it or not, I haven't consume any alcohol for a whole week *pat on my shoulder* . Goody, rite??

weird feeling

How come everyone seems to be living in a fairytale??

Is something wrong with me?

sick

*GRRRrrr* Why does the sick bug keeps going after me?? Flu, fever and now diarrhoea ..Geez!!! What the hell is wrong with me???

biz trip down south

JB - Tried a different Japanese (my fav food eva!!) restaurant this time - Kirishima Shuzou (Crystal Crown Hotel). Rating - mediocre (sashimi not that fresh + service not that good). The lunch sets are really affordable priced (rm20-rm37) though. I've tasted much better Japanesy foody. Shall stick back to the 2 restaurants I alwiz visit when I'm at JB.

* Appetizer *

* From top - fruit, salad, miso soup w pickled cucumber *

* Kirishi bento - eggplant + eggy stuff (top left), potato salad + unagi (top right), tempura (lower left), sashimi (lower right) plus, comes with rice *

Didn't take pics of the place though, was a tad bit annoyed by the group of obnoxious Japs next to my table.

(Dinner)

Wasn't feeling the best so I had some take-away on my way home after work around 8pm (yes! am totally not kidding!!!). Stopped by a mall to get some fast take-out hence, Vivo was my choice.

* My grilled chicken panini *

* Accompanied with soggy fries (?) *

* Mushroom soup for the sickly *

Malacca (day trip) - Had to drop by at Nadaje to grab some of their delicious cakeys for Papa & mum & ..(too bad u can't taste it).. The cakes are made from layers of crepes, something different I would say! Bit on the expensive side though, rm7.50 - rm9.00 per slice of cake.

* The place *

* Visited by celebs huh? *

* Cakeys almost sold out *

* Banana chocolate *

* Double Chocolate *

* Tiramisu *

Bought 5 slices in total - 2 tiramisu, 1 double choc, 1 banana choc and 1 new york cheesecake (speciality for that day - no pics though coz before I could take any, it was down in Mum's tummy in split secs *LOL*). Hence, total bill came up to rm43.

love this song

Paramore
Brick By Boring Brick lyrics



{Verse 1}
She lives in a fairy tale
Somewhere too far for us to find
Forgotten the taste and smell
Of a world that she's left behind
It's all about the exposure, the lens, I told her
The angles are all wrong now
She's ripping wings off of butterflies

{Pre-Chorus}
Keep your feet on the ground
When your head's in the clouds

{Chorus}
Well go get your shovel
And we'll dig a deep hole
To bury the castle, bury the castle
Go get your shovel
And we'll dig a deep hole
To bury the castle, bury the castle

Ba-da ba ba-da ba ba da

{Verse 2}
So one day, he found her crying
Coiled up on the dirty ground
Her prince finally came to save her
And the rest you can figure out
But it was a trick
And the clock struck twelve, well make sure
To build your house brick by boring brick
Or the wolf's gonna blow it down

{Pre-Chorus}
Keep your feet on the ground...
When your head's in the clouds...

{Chorus}
Well go get your shovel
And we'll dig a deep hole
To bury the castle, bury the castle
Go get your shovel
And we'll dig a deep hole
We'll bury the castle, bury the castle

{Bridge}
Well you built up a world of magic
Because your real life is tragic
Yeah you built up a world of magic...

If it's not real
You can't hold it in your hand
You can't feel it with your heart
And I won't believe it
But if it's true
You can see it with your eyes
Oh, even in the dark
And that's where I want to be, yeah!

{Chorus}
Go get your shovel
And we'll dig a deep hole
To bury the castle, bury the castle
Go get your shovel
And we'll dig a deep hole
To bury the castle, bury the castle

{Outro}
Ba-da ba ba-da ba ba da
Ba-da ba ba ba-da ba ba
[X3]
Ba-da ba ba-da ba ba da
Ba-da ba ba ba ba-ba ba ba

*shivers*

Brrrrr...It's like a hot vs cold war inside my body (cold - outside; hot - inside). Have caught a cold, for sure! Am wishing for tonnes of stuff currently and negative thoughts are forever playing in my jumbled up mind. *shivers*

Questions with hope to curb it from haunting my mind by spilling this out on cybersphere:-

What do you do when you miss someone?

What will you do if ...??

What do you do when you are haunted & overwhelmed by the feeling of emptiness & loneliness?

What do you do if you don't know what to do?

What do you do if you want something badly but no matter how hard you've tried, you still can't get it?

What do you do when you know it's the wrong thing to do but you still go ahead with it?

Shoo!! Will the bad stuff please go away??? (singing ' Why am I still suffocated? I'm constantly devastated' - Orianthi fever)

suffocating

Was listening to the newly downloaded Orianthi's (one hot & super talented babe!! just love her guitar strumming skills *envy*) song ' Suffocated'.. this phrase from the song strongly depicts how I am currently feeling " Why am I still suffocated? I'm constantly devastated, just to stay alive!! " ...

don't know!!

Is it better to carry a 'don't know' attitude in life?

Is it good to hide sadness behind a smile?

OR pain behind a laughter?

I really DON"T KNOW (!!!!)..

~ home sweet home ~

Whoopee!! Alas, I'm home after 2.5 hours on the road. Was trying my best not to fall asleep along the way..best remedy to curb sleepiness while driving = food! Haha..Munched on some leftover McD's curly fries from lunch and washed it down with some caffeine (Coke, of course!). The flu is just killing me..*Grrrr*

Ok, some backdated pics from last weekend's partying:-

(Rootz Club - early celebration of Miss J's bday)

* Super tiny table (better than nothing rite?) *

* Gals in black *

* Note:- Don't really know the ppl at the back, yo! *

* Same goes to my left and right - friend of frennie'f fren i guess?? LOL - whateva!! *

(Quattro - 2nd celebration of Mr L.C's bday; 1st one was at Bamboo on Thurs but pics not with me)

* Alert! This is the result of severely high alcohol level draining in our bloodstreams @_@ hence, leading to cam-whoring!!! *

(My outfit for Bamboo)

* Dress - Khoon Hooi (Great buy! Love the perfect cutting of the dress that accentuates my body) *

* Newsboy cap - This is a perfect cover-up for a gal's bad hair day! *

Hehe..as you can see from the pics, my fav black cap made 3 debut appearances last week . Reason being, need I say it out again - yes! BAD HAIR DAY!!!! I think it's about time for a new hair perm + hair cut + color = $$$.. ( I do wish $$$ grow on trees! )

triple play ~

Thus - Bamboo, Fri - Library & Quattro, Sat - Rootz (yippee! Been there at last!) :- That pretty much sums up how i spent my weekend --> side effects of too much partying?? = Me catching the flu bug due to severe lack of sleep and wayyyY too much alcohol in my bloodstream. *yikes* But it was fun though. *sneezes* Excuse me!

More birthday celebrations to come, which means..hehe..do I even need to spell it out? P.A.R.T.Y.. I guess that's just how I kill time as I CAN'T stand staying at home alone.

Despite much negative reviews about Rootz among frennies, I find it quite alright actually; though I prefer Sultan Lounge @MO Hotel more. The place was just like a box, with a dancefloor, bar and a DJ. Before the place was flooded with people, it looks quite cool BUT, later on, the crowd was just CRAZY..I felt like being squashed in a can of sardines. However, I must admit that the quality of the crowd was WAYYYyy much better than Bamboo, Library & Quattro.

Eee...the Internet connection has been really really BAD recently..I can't seem to upload any pics.. *pfffttttt* How frustrating!! Gosh! Can someone chase away the flu bug from me..? I hate being sick, especially when I am on a business trip down South.. simply annoyying!! Am writing this from my hotel room, which FYI does not come with free Wifi *grrr*. Luckily, I remembered to bring along my broadband with me *pat on shoulder*

Can't wait to go home!! Was supposed to spend another night in Malacca but I've decided to head home and drive down to Malacca on Thus morning instead. I miss my own bed and pillow..=( *sniffs* Well, am killing time munching on my grilled chicken panina from Vivo, while watching Gossip Girl season 2 on 8TV. Am currently hatˆng my job even more..the waiting, the travelling, the asshole and bitches..(arrrgGhHhh) ...the list goes on... When can I get out of this dilemma???? *sigh*

whoopee doo!

It's finally Friday! I've just survived another week.. Plans for tonight would be a pre-birthday dinner and drinks at the Library, and subsequently, would be heading to Quattro..yes! AGAIN!!.. And, Saturday night would be spent partying at the latest scene in town - Rootz, located on the rooftop of Lot 10 - another birthday celebration. *LOL*

Oh well! As the year is drawing to an end, more party invitations to come, I guess! Goodie =)

BTW, what to wear later???? ... I need more new party clothes and shoes!!!

pre-weekend =)

Thank god! It's finally Thursday, weekend is just within an arms reach. I have a birthday party to attend later at Bamboo, TTDI plaza... Hmm.. haven't thought of what to wear yet. Guess this calls for Project Recycle again.. oR.. I can skip the whole fiasco, stay home and watch the telly?? *LOL* Am feeling a bit lethargic today. Had a weird dream while I was napping just now. Nice weather these days to ZZZzzzz! Well, we'll just see how it goes later..

Plus, I have to report back to office AGAIN for f***s tomorrow morning. Have to do some shitty role play. Thanks to the a**hole manager of mine! What a waste of time!!!!! Besides, those freaking detailing aids are bloody old news. The aging process on the detailing aids are so damn apparent. SoOoo embarassing to even use it in front of the docs. Not that I am prejudiced towards short people, BUT some are just born to be a NO-BRAINER!!!

Oh! Interesting news I read from style.com and nitrolicious.com this afternoon, Jimmy Choo for H&M is RESTOCKING tomorrow at 3 H&M stores in New York!!! May I repeat, in New York only!! What about London??? Sigh! Is it just my fate that I am not destined to be a proud owner of a pair of Choos at an awesome price?? Just love the one in electric blue...*sobsob* and the zebra-striped clutch and the gladiator heels and the flats..(the list will be never ending)

Note: I still haven't got over the fact that H&M is not available in Malaysia, as well as Target and a few other good stuff..What country are we living in?? Why are we always deprived from all these bargains??? @##$%%^**

Btw, had my eyes on a Longchamp x Jeremy Scott 'Bone' Pliage bag, upon reading another updated post from nitrolicious.com. *hearts* And the best part, the retail price is $224 only.. Splurge or steal? Sweet!!

(Photo credits - fashionbombdaily.com/nitrolicious.com)

Am awaiting *fingers crossed* good news from frenny in London... Hope she got my text message and email! Wonder if the retail store in Pavilion has it? Must go check it out tomorrow! See..talk about shopping ban! It's so tough with all the temptations around me. Urgghhhh... Must get it though >.<

It's pouring again and again...

Rain! Rain! Rain! This is practically the weather here for the past few weeks. I guess it's what they call the 'Monsoon' season as year end is approaching us at the speed of light. Hmm.. Time flies, don't you think? Again, my mood is indirectly affected by the dark skies and pouring rain. Reason being, received some news that basically shocked me to the core..but, whether it's true or false, I am very determined to find out. Still had trouble sleeping after taking a dose of Xanax.

Whhhhyyy???? Each and everytime I am starting to feel a teensy bit happy and am in the midst of regaining myself, I get attacked by another chaotic hiatus AGAIN!!! Pffffttttttttt...

Another bad news, Jimmy Choo's for H&M are all SOLD OUT, even the clutches too!! Damn! But can't blame the madness because it's Jimmy Choo for a bargain price *sob*..Just not my luck, I guess. Envy but happy for the peeps who managed to brave through the mad queue and be a proud owner of those purrrdyy goods. What a steal!!

Gosh! Talking about fashion, Rodarte for Target is going to hit the stores and the online website on December 20th. *Grrrrr* Am currently wishing I live in the States now.. This is sooOOo not fair!! And to rub salt into the wound, I just read from stylecaster.com, Jean Paul Gaultier will be collaborating with Target as well as Sonia Rykiel for H&M. *BoohoooOOO*

How come we are deprived from all these fantabulous bargains on this side of the earth??? So so so NOT FAIR!!!!!

curry + champers

Since it's been pouring the whole day, I've decided to do a bit of cooking.. something to keep me warm - Curry chicken! Bought some chicken breasts from the mart few days ago + Brahma's meat curry paste, some potatoes & carrots plus, some added seasonings (dried chillies, special curry paste & lemongrass)..and the result is...

* Ta daa!! *

After dinner, was itching for some champers..my favorite Tantinel Prosecco.

* Hmmm...can I finish the whole bottle of bubbly all by myself? *

Am proud of thy self for completing my Oct expense claims just now *pat on shoulder* after much procrastination the whole day.

Btw, Jimmy Choo for H&M was finally out few days ago, 14th November 2009.. Hopefully my gal frenny in London can manage to brave thru the super duper long queue and get my very first pair of Choo's. I had my eyes on a lovely pair of heels in metallic blue and the zebra striped clutch. Howeverr..due to financial constraints, I had to choose either one which she can get her hands on. High hopes on the heels though. Girly, all hopes on ya *fingers crossed* .. Me *heart* the Choos!!

$

Am a bit paranoid now when I saw the dangerously low figures in my bank account.. I have yet to receive my Sep claims...delayed again! Grrrr... Thus, I've decided to work from home today since it is still raining non-stop and I need to complete & submit my Oct claims asap to prevent anymore delays. Hmpphhh! The efficiency of the accounts department is soooo unreliable.. 10 more days to go till payday. Gota be frugal these few days =( *sob*

P/s:- 2 birthday parties to attend this week. Talk about trying to be frugal..aaARrrggHHH!!! This is going to be bloody hard!!

partayyyy!!

Am regaining my old self back in bitz *Whoopeee doo*...partied a bit tonight..Initially was headed to Rootz (latest club in KL located at rooftop Lot 10) but when i reached the parking, received a call from hommie that the place was freaking packed and the queue was super long. So, we hestitantly switched to Quattro ( located at Avenue K, opp. KLCC)..

Awww...I still wana go to Rootz... Oh well, I guess it's the company that counts. It was freaking packed and crowded too at Quattro..dif. range of crowd compared to Rootz.. Nvm, am very determined to go there next week for gal frenz birthday celebration. Must get a reservation!!! N hopefully they don't change venue *fingers crossed*.. Super tired now... time to zzzZZZzz..!! What a night! *LOL*

Btw, not forgetting my outfit for the night:-

* Gladiator inspired dress (Mango), black leggings & my Fendi Zucca pouch (a definite steal amongst my other haulage during recent Taiwan trip - 30% disc + 5% GST)*

* Paired with this purdy pair of Mary-Janes (ALDO) *

* Cam-whoring in my new ride *

New toy

Yippee...FIIIIINALLLYYY.. I got my new ride.. Ok, as much as I hate to admit, I did feel a tad bit ecstatic when I got home yesterday, despite the fact that it's not the car I wanted. Basically, it was like going home to have a big..*hmm*...nope, HUGE pressie waiting for you at your doorstep. Woohooo... alas...(my patience was wearing thin soon...but it's finally here!!). MY OWN RIDE!! *sigh* After all the hardships that I had to wade through.. the ride is actually not bad.

Plus, my Papa is gonna sponsor for my new sports rim (I was utterly taken aback when I saw the current one, UGLY is the best word to describe it). $ saved. So all I have to spend is on tinting. Guess I'll be on another shopping ban again! Boo!

Loads of hugs and kisses to my Mummy & Papa.. Thanks for everything! =)

another bad day (AGAIN!)

It's pouring again.. I just wish the rain will wash away all my tears, my sorrows, my problems, my sadness.. A day filled with frustration and tears, I would say. Reason being - car, parents & stupidity of others! There you go, a glimpse of my pathetic life. To others, they see a 27 year old, with a more than average income, living a slightly luxurious life compared to her peers, branded bags, clothes, shoes, no commitments - lucky is what people describe me. But, lil' do they know about me..the cracks and broken pieces hidden inside. A life filled with tears, sorrows & disappointments. Then again, I'm lucky that god showered me with plenty of friends, good ones. Thank you god! I really appreciate that alot! Without them, I will not have survived till now. Oh well, i guess that's just life. My life!!

Not such a good day afterall..

I have tonnes of frustration and complaints to be spewed out from my raging mind but I just can't find the right words to describe them. Experiencing a tad bit of writer's block..

Oh well! Good news at last! After a few months of feeling lost as if i'm stuck in a rut, I FINALLYYYY FOUND MY WAY BACK!!! *Hoorayyyy* I am back, yo!! Full credits goes to my fellow colleague, Dude J & ex-colleague, Missy N, who have been very supportive throughout my 'Lost' ordeal and I am most sincerely grateful to the both of them, for bringing me back to my senses, waking me up from this nightmare and pulling me back on track. Thanks a lot guysss!!

Ok..that's the good stuff! As for the bad stuff, *Grrr* just the thought of it sets my mind on fire!! Basically it is concerning my car, thanks to the stupidity and ineffeciency of the annoying, chinese-ed, speaking (Sorry! Not that I have anything against chinese-ed, speaking people, BUT some are just @#$$%^^&) banker from Public Bank, I still haven't got my Vios yet. The way these 'people' work is just like shyte - 3 damn weeks just to tell me that it can't be done..bla!bla!bla! If i had gone to other banks, the process would've only taken a week or so.

Bloody annoying!!!! Plus, she said 'Oh! You just started working etc....' Bitch! If you have had open your freaking blind eyes bigger, you can be able to see from my EPF statement that I haven't 'started working'! Did you even bring your peanut brains to work?? My current salary is more than enough to purchase a 70K car, ok!!! It might be even more than what you are pathetically earning in the stupid god-forsakken asshole Public Bank branch in Seremban. Geez! With my current salary, I can purchase a 100K car, damn that bitch!!!

I am running out of patience fast..It has been 3 freaking months. I need the car ASAP!!! One is supposed to be showered with exhilaration and joy of getting a new ride but I definitely am not feeling it. It has been hell for me.. plus it is not the car I wanted and my parents changed the number of the car no.plate that I've originally wanted (@@#$%^^%$^^).. without letting me know!! In fact, I have no say in anything AT ALL and have to settle for whatever that comes my way. This is just great, huh? I'm tired of waiting. Wait!Wait!Wait! That's all i do! For my job, in life .. literally for everything. SIck & friggin' TIRED!!!

Another icing on the cake is living with SLOBS!!!! 'People' would you for god's sake pick up your own mess and shytes!!! I am not your maid, ok!! Bloody hypocrites! Bitches & Faggots aloof, I would say! *arrrghhh*

So, there you go..enough of ranting for the day *phew* ...

halloween day..

I think age is getting into me *GRrrrr* ... Attended an ex-colleague's house warming in bandar Enstek, Nilai (near F1 circuit) just now and was supposed to meet up with my colleague at Changkat for second rounds but as the night proceeded, I felt too tired by the time I reached Damansara toll to proceed to KL to join my colleague. Was supposed to join him at Werner's initially. Besides, my other gal friend was still in Kepong and was also too tired to join.

Had a few drinks at the house warming (red & white wines)..guess the alcoholic in me has disappeared, few drinks is currently taking a toll on me and making me sleepy..Yo, what happened to the E & the Ling? Oh nooooooo!!! I guess it's just the phase I'm currently going through..no mood for anything at all!!! Boo! =( I need to regain my self back... the crazy 'ol party-holic and alcoholic me... come back!!! I miss u.. I'm not liking the new me now...AT ALL!!! WILL THE CRAZY 'OL ELING COME BACK PLS!

P/S: HAPPY HALLOWEEN PEEPS!!