I don't know what exactly happened just now but I think I just experienced a horrible emotional attack! All of a sudden, anxiety level was shooting up drastically, severe palpitation and I COULDN'T BREATHE!! Omg! It took me some time to control myself and fight it off ... though heart is still beating fast now. What is wrong with me???
Earlier while in the midst of working on 'The Project', I felt a bit uneasy with the sudden presence of anxiety but I shook it off in order to finish up some of the stuff from 'The Project'. I do have to admit that for the past week (or shall I say month), I was feeling pretty down with the overwhelming stress, training, assessments, and drama from work. Usually, I'm much better in adapting to a new working environment but off late that's not the case. To make things worst, one of my pillar of support is fading away. I just wish for everything to fall into place as soon as possible.
Maybe I'm putting too much pressure on myself lately. It's been pretty hard adjusting to life after funemployment. Or perhaps I no longer am the person I used to be. Sometimes I feel like I am beginning to turn into an ugly, bitter person recently. Some peace of mind is needed greatly!
Gotta try to get some sleep. My head feels like it's about to burst ... and I feel like crying now. Argghh .. why now? I'm supposed to enjoy my 5 days of break .. At this point of time, life sucks for me!!! But only I have the remedy to cure myself... or maybe God! If you are listening to me, this is the time to lend me a helping hand!! Help me clear my mind .. pls!!
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